Category: Diary

Posts that relate to the events of life, as they happen...still connected to real experiences of the body and mind.

Inspired by The Unexamined Life

Tags might include:

  • meal - often refers to a menu item
  • calories - summing up the meal calories for the day
  • media - some form of entertainment (see Review)
  • contact - interaction with another person
  • intent - kind of like a TODO item, but with more of a flow to it...just inviting it to nest here in the blog

Should I give code names to contacts? Currently, I just refer to contacts anonymously. If I give code names, that would allow binding multiple sample points of story to a given identifier...which lessens anonymity.

This is one of the dangers of technology: dozens of daily web interactions, hundreds monthly, thousands yearly and the wonderful thrilling world of AI means...less anonymity than you might suppose, or even hope for...

Leave a comment if you'd like a followup thread.

How Was Big Sur?

I love Big Sur.

The nature there feels...right.

My body is excited to explore, and content to enjoy.

Yet the latest visit(s) have been with the mind, seeing an old friend, one of the oldest I have (as memory reveals.)

Everyone is a mirror, and to everyone we are a mirror...

And with everyone, we pay a price.

Oh, well...we imagine it so, but really, it is the person paying the price, seeing a cost, feeling exchanges, caught in the flows of one another.

How do we listen? How do we hold words?

There is an intensity that comes out with my old friend, and I see it

As the touching of swords.

Followed by the dance of the blades.

I...choose...to leave the blade sheathed, as the blade dances about my head.

Or I choose to unsheath the blade, touch blades and play.

Even in the crescendo, slamming down upon the counter and screaming, "I CAN BE ENRAGED AS MUCH AS YOU", I was there, watching.

And I am happy that in all my pain, memories and imagined, clinging suffering, that I saw no reason to plunge the blade into any heart, of body or mind.

Keto Vinyasa Day 25

Keto Vinyasa Day 25

This is the 25th day of my keto/incremental vinyasa flow.

(Funny that I remember I was on number 21 for my birthday on November 24...lol)

Vinyasa

I started doing vinyasa every day, and increasing every day. The goal is to get up to 108, and then perhaps walk down?

I originally planned modulo 4, so day 1 I did 4, day 2 I did 8, and then...I started getting a sore back.

Now I am at an increase of 1 per day, and this is the 25th day, so 25 vinyasas for the day, and they are done!

Keto

At the same time, I started doing keto, not knowing how but always feeling like my body has a history of reacting favorably to high-protein diets. I definitely felt the Tiger's Blood on Whole 30.

Yet! It's really high fat more than high protein...

How to Eat More FAT?!?!?

Unexpected Excitement

Though I haven't made the chocolate chips yet from the photo, the fudge was the bomb!

I have done two different types of keto bread, which were fantastic.

And I'm planning to try the pancakes soon!

Fat Fasting

Fat fasting involves significantly reducing calorie intake and eating a diet consisting almost entirely of fat for no more than 2 or 3 days.

Healthful Fats

  • coconut oil
  • olive oil
  • avocados and avocado oil
  • flaxseed oil

Rules

Diets

  • Standard ketogenic diet (SKD): 70% fat, 20% protein, 10% carbohydrates

  • Cyclical ketogenic diet (CKD): This diet involves periods of higher-carbohydrates in between the ketogenic diet cycles, for example, five ketogenic days followed by two high-carbohydrate days as a cycle.

  • Targeted ketogenic diet (TKD): This diet permits adding additional carbohydrates around the periods of the intensive physical workout.

  • High-protein ketogenic diet (HPKD): 60% fat, 35% protein, 5% carbohydrates

  • Prudent: 25-30% fat, 20-25% protein, 50% carbohydrate "For Indians, it appears that it would be most prudent to have a diet with about 50 per cent carbohydrate (using complex carbs and whole grains such as brown rice or whole wheat) about 20-25 per cent protein (preferably from vegetable proteins such as legumes and pulses) and the remaining 25-30 per cent from healthy fats like monounsaturated fats (e.g. groundnut oil or mustard oil and nuts and seeds) along with plenty of green leafy vegetables. Such a diet may not immediately give dramatic results as far as weight reduction is concerned. However, it will be sustainable in the long term and will be less risky and certainly more healthy and also help prevent non-communicable diseases such as diabetes, cardiovascular disease and certain cancers."

Nutrition Info

Recipes

I have been using the air fryer for much of the keto cooking, including chicken tenders, which is: Carbs 30g protein 82g fat 132g

I have not paid for the keto custom plan, but I can see the advantage of their system. They even provide a shopping list which is pretty nifty.

Separation Anxiety

EXERCISE Bike to and from Marine Park Kirtan

The people and singing at Marine Park Kirtan were wonderful, once again. I brought an altar space, with Hanuman and Ganesha on a little hippy cloth.

One of our friends was sad, yet she stayed and played to the Gods and Goddesses...such a powerful soul.

And when I got home, actually, even on the bike home, I started falling down the well a bit.

Reminded me of when I was with some friends in the car and I realized how I always wanted to be dropped off last, to be the last part of the multi-person creation we had been.

So I missed the beautiful kirtan vibe, and then, I had some cravings, because you know...feed those feelings...so I ordered pick up from Harvey's

Then two different sets of friends reached out to me in text, so I felt a little more loved. Thanks, sweet beings out there, who really do care.

MEAL 2000 (at least...LOL) Pastrami burger Chili cheese fries Strawberry Pizzaz

Yeah, I probably should have ordered after I checked my messages...might have been a salad in there.

Feeling the Swirling Inside

"Whatever he does, if he does it for the sake of finding his own real self, will surely bring him to himself." - Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj

10:20am AWAKEN

I woke up earlier, and have been meditating in bed.

This is the watching, the feeling of the swirling inside. Such an amazing symphony of memory and reaction, sensation throughout.

I turned to "I AM THAT", which sits on the bedside stand, and found this quote.

I am looking forward to Marine Park Kirtan today at 3pm, and sharing the little gifts to the Gods.

It has gotten colder, and the gas springs on the arms that keep the iMac elevated have drooped down to the desk. It's funny how frustrating I find this, in that I think about fixing it, yet do not want to open the closet, pull down the box, grab the hex key, tighten the screw, and return the hex key and box to the closet...

And there! It's done! (Of course, to tighten the gas spring, you go CCW, or what is typically loosening - HA!)

MEAL Egg'n'Cheese Sandwich

  • Fried Egg
  • Gouda cheese
  • Bad Ass Ketchup
  • Red onion
  • 2 slices whole wheat bread

Strangely, I have been wanting to review all of Bob's Burgers... And so it shall begin!

MEDIA Bob's Burgers S1E1 Human Flesh

MEAL Funky Monkey Pancakes

MEDIA Bob's Burgers S1E2 Crawl Space

MEDIA Bob's Burgers S1E3 Sacred Cow

History of American Goulash

CALORIES 2000

MEDIA Prime: Karakuri Circus S1E1 The Curtain Rises

This lovely little show has circuses and puppets, which led to solidifying ghosts...which, strangely, seems to tie to Terminator: Dark Fate, and the dual-Terminator, skeletal robot and liquid metal form.

INTENT POST Puppets and Ghosts

11:54am CONTACT

A friend called to invite me over for goulash (which I always want to write as "ghoulash"...perhaps for Halloween?)

She also told me about her cats, and how pumpkin is good for firming up their soft stools since they were de-flea-d, and that she had another friend who had some pumpkin that she had left out hanging on her fence near Helm's Bakery to be picked up for the cat's eventual consumption.

I live pretty near to Helm's Bakery, yes?

And it's true: Cardiff is just a few blocks to Helm's Bakery.

I often bike past and through there...

I worked in the complex, at a little startup called JumpTime, which got acquired by OpenX, which company I had just joined after leaving JumpTime, ironically.

3:30pm

I have totally been thinking all day about having another set of Air-Fried Chicken Sliders...they are just soooo amazing!

So I distracted myself with some cooking in the kitchen!

Made Tangerine Vegan Pesto, and gathered 8 little jars to bring to Marine Park Kirtan tomorrow as an offering to the Gods

MEAL 500 Tangerine Vegan Pesto Plantain chips Air-fried brussel sprouts (quartered, olive oil and mushroom salt, 360 degrees to perfection!)

MEDIA Prime: Karakuri Circus S1E2 Promise

Finally broke down MEAL 700 Air-Fried Chicken Sliders

MEDIA Starz: Bloodshot

Then I made some cross-cut air fries, with bad ass ketchup! MEAL 300 Air fries 220 Bad ass ketchup 80

9:08pm

I keep fantasizing about eating the last set of Air-Fried Chicken Sliders, and going to the liquor store and picking up some Coors Light and V8 to make micheladas.

10pm

MEDIA Hulu: Helstrom S1E1 Mother's Little Helpers

MEAL 800 I did it...ate the last Air-Fried Chicken Sliders Two pieces of bread instead of three mini Hawaiian buns Added Gouda cheese, melted over bad ass ketchup, mustard and red onions

10:37pm

MEDIA Hulu: Helstrom S1E2 Viaticum

11:36pm

MEDIA Hulu: Helstrom S1E3 The One Who Got Away

Living in Noise

CALORIES 3430

8am MEAL 615 Fried mashed potato 215 2 fried eggs 150 1 tbsp olive oil 150 Air-fried brussel sprouts 100

3:35pm Woke up after a little nap...

MEDIA UFC Pre-Ortega-Korean Zombie Update

MEDIA UFC Khabib vs Dustin

MEDIA UFC Dustin vs Justin

Looking to see how Gaethje will do against Nurmagomedov by comparing these videos...

Gaethje training partners

MEAL 390 Chicken wing (extra crispy) 75 Mashed potatoes 215 Salad 100

MEDIA NFL Chiefs vs Bills

Wow. So bizarre...very difficult to find out what time the games were...all the other statistics are available.

MEAL 550 Home-made pancake with chocolate chips (250 = 175 + 75) With remaining yogurt fruit salad combo 300?

MEDIA NFL Cardinals vs Cowboys

MEAL 350 2 pancakes 2 * 175

I had mixed them up in a jar in the refrigerator, and couldn't resist. They were so wonderful warm out of the pan.

Then still trying to watch Hulu: Fargo S1E5 The Birthplace of Civilization...

9pm

Was inspired to make and eat a little meal MEAL 825 Chicken Sliders 700 Glass of Cab 125

11:30pm MEAL Chicken Sliders 700

Flowing into Hara Hara Shankara

~2pm

  • Made the bed
  • Resisted using cell phone
    • Imagined her flirting with me, offering to be...anything!
  • Played Hara Hara Shankara on Butterscotch
  • Imagined cell phone robot platform
    • Wheels
    • Plugs into Lightning/USB-C
      • 90+ degree open/close so cell phone is vertical
    • Battery
    • Wall plug
    • Mechanical grabbers
    • Allow others remote control robot platform through phone
      • Including phone camera, microphone, screen
  • Created and ate Longan Honey Sumac Fruit Salad
    • With yogurt, organic raw walnuts, marcona almonds, pepitas
  • Watched "Interception of the Year" after NFL notification on cell phone
    • "Jets safety Marcus Maye pinned the football against his back with one hand..."
  • Went to Mac
    • To import Hara Hara Shankara photo
    • Allowed Parallels to run Windows from Boot Camp
      • Looked through Steam library
      • Doom Eternal has Vulkan error
    • Consolidated documents into Diary on mac In preparation for migrating all documents to Their Temple Blog...

Smoking Neighbors and Burnt Meat

Just now wrapping up the laundry and sending my friend home. She made wonderful mashed potatoes and grilled carrots, while I...burned the meat. Both the chicken and the steak. What a comedy of cooking errors!

The smoke from the charcoal briquettes in the chimney sent my neighbors into a tizzy! First the downstairs neighbor screaming, wondering if we had a fire. I spoke to her, and explained it was normal, and...a little smokey.

Then the upstairs neighbor came down, wondering if we were going to set the giant bush in the backyard on fire. I walked her through the house to the balcony, and showed her what we were doing.

She suggested using an air fryer.

I cooked the chicken first, thinking we were only going to have chicken, and then my friend really wanted the steak, so I threw the chicken in the oven to stay warm and put the steak on the grill. Sadly, I thought the low coals wouldn't be very hot, and so left it on for a while...the coals were very hot, and the steak was some of carbon, and a lot of very, very well done.

Then while cooking the steak, potatoes and carrots, the chicken overcooked as well.

Not my finest hour on the grill.

Then we ate, and intermittently through all the laundry, we chatted on the balcony and watched Arietty on my DVD drive. Apparently, the optical lens was quite dusty as it took many attempts before the DVD Player actually launched on Mac OS X.

All in all, the friend made the evening a wonderful success, in spite of the chaos.